insanityamilost

 Not dead!

Living in Waterloo. 

Very nice. 

New Job.

Horses? Workin on it!

Hurrah.

Sentences = bad?

Today, I am avoiding writing a paper.

What you say, a paper? I thought you were done school! Well, that makes two of us. Or more, depending on how many people are reading this. As it turns out, not so much with the done. The head of my department has luckily agreed to let me do my  LS 4OMG of
Me-not-knowing-I-was-one-credit-short-for-grad-OMG-WhatdoIdo-ness, as an independent study. Well, she says she will help the petition, as will me academic advisor.

So basically, what this means, is I have to cough up $500 for the honour of writing a 20-40 (yes big range) page paper, which will be the sole thing graded, and that will allow me to get the final credit I need to graduate.

Aaaaaaaand...

Did I mention I not only have one job, in my field, 4 days a week? But a second job, on weekends? And am props lead for CAINE? And gaming stuff that I like doing? And a car that needs an oil change, bills that need paying, and a whackload of debt? And do not really have the time, money or inclination to be writing a massive paper right now. But, I am, and will find the aforementioned things and get it done. I've started the proposal, to be handed in (er, emailed) to my Prof, for Monday-ish. I will have to finish the paper by April.

And um, I will hope my petition goes through, as I have only heard "Did you send it?" so far. And yes, I did. On Monday. But she has not receieved it, I guess. Eeek. So am hoping that she gets it and I didn't somehow send it to the wrong place, get it lost in the mail, or have the universe conspiring against me, and somehow it's in Nunavut right now being looked at quizically by someone in an ingloo.

Was let go today from work. I knew it was coming, my boss and I had talked last week, and I had already come to the decision I was leaving, even if the boss had decided to keep me on. So the job hunt starts again.

On the plus side, the boss said she would give me a good reference... it was that the job was a poor fit for me, not that I wasn't obviously working hard, trying my best, showing up on time, every day and good to work with. She said she felt confident enough in me to be able to give me a reference, even though the job I had with her didn't work out.

It's something I guess.

Back to the job hunt. And to being poor and unable to pay my bills until I find something new.

Edit: aaaaaaaaaand to top it all of, my cell phone was just cut off. I paid it on my credit card. So now I need to come up with the $300 (WTF? I have no idea where these charges came from, and my bill doesn't really give me any clues, I didn't think I used my phone that much!) to pay that off, on top of all my "normal" bills.

Why?

1. Name: Kari Gineene Johnson

2. Age: 21

3. Location: Toronto, Ontario

4. Occupation: Assistant Pet Groomer and Bartender

5. Partner: the_shard

6. Children: No thank you, I am much too young.

7. Brothers/Sisters: Half Brother and Sister, 18 and 15 years older.

8. Pets: Treble, a very pretty, bratty, quiet calico who only ever got the first part of meow down - the meee part. Rogue, a small, chubby, loud and demanding, ever hungry black and white critter.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
i: Work. Working two jobs. One fulltime, one VERY part time. One grooming pets, which is 35-50 hours a week... and bartending 6-10 hours a week.
ii: School: Finishing up that BA. PITA.
iii: Money issues. Trying to fix problems caused by 4th year of unemployment, which was preceded by summer of being laid off.

10. School: Taking the final class towards a BA in Legal Studies. In fact, avoiding writing a paper right now.

11. Parents: My mom died when I was 17, of cancer. Father remarried about a year later, to a woman with a young daughter. He started dating her like... 4-5 months after she died. Other shitty fatherly attitude ensued. 

is a hunk of red fucking scrap metal

stupid thing broke down again.

Goodbye Christmas, Hello car repair bills.

I haven't written a poem in years. So out of practice.

Last week, or the week of hellishness...

I was having such a bad week last week, you know how bad things tend to come all at once? I had one of those weeks!

you know, things I'd like to do, whether today, tomorrow or some day in the distant future. from crazy to mundane.

1) Finish my BA.
2) Further my education through grad or law school
3) Work somewhere cool and exciting, even if the pay is crap
4) Ride a horse in the mountains
5) Ride in the ocean
6) Swim in the ocean
7) Jump out of a plane
8) Travel across the ocean
9) Visit another continent
10) " And the band played
Songs that we had never heard
But we danced anyway
We never understood the words" ... dance in a club/bar somewhere in the world with the music being in some other language
11) Sleep under the stars somewhere I have never been
12) See an ice-burg
13) Live out the song "Home for a Rest"
14) Be in a real castle, that was once lived in by some sort of royals.
15) Sail somewhere on a ship
16) Stand in the middle of a Roman Coliseum
17) Explore the Ruins of Pompeii
18) Visit New Zealand, see places where LOTR was filmed
19) Go on a real cattle-drive
20) Ride a mechanical bull
21) Learn how to joust
22) Make a kick-ass costume that doesn't have weird uneven stitching
23) Eat food I can't pronounce
24) Gamble in Vegas
25) Go to an event that requires a ball-gown
26) Own my own place
27) Get married
28) Kiss someone I love in the London Rain
29) Roll down a hill, spin in circles and race to the swings. In other words, have a time when I can back away from real life and be a kid again, even if it's just for a few hours
30) Have a picnic, with a blanket and everything
31) Beat a video game, all by myself
32) Use a power tool to make something, without losing any limbs or parts of limbs
33) Paint a ceramic figure, in memory of my mom
34) Get more tattoos
35) Get a piercing
36) Earn enough money to do more than just get by
37) Own a Mini
38) Drive a fast car... fast
39) Spend a week in the wilderness
40) See a lynx in the wild
41) Learn to shoot a gun
42) Go on a hunt of some sort, preferably for something ugly like a turkey
43) Fillet a fish
44) Cook a meal with multiple courses by myself
45) Learn to make pasta sauce from scratch
46) Bake a loaf of bread
47) Figure out how to make cinnamon buns like Nana did
48) Do something memorable for charity
49) Backpack in another country
50) Travel from Ocean to Ocean in Canada, and see what there is to see
51) Laugh until my ribs feel like they are breaking
52) Learn to dance - whether it be salsa, swing, ballroom, or some other dance
53) See a pyramid up close
54) Touch the sand in the desert
55) zorb
56) Own multiple horses
57) Breed my own horse
58) Win a year end championship
59) find "home" instead of house
60) Get published (again)
61) Write a novel, even if it sucks
62) wear an awesome Halloween costume
63) throw a really cool party
64) feel like a princess
65) be the centre of attention in a crowd
66) hang-glide
67) Climb a rock wall
68) Go to a roller-rink and skate
69) Learn to do one of those cool sideways stops on ice-skates
70) Visit Stonehenge
71) Watch the Chiconteage pony roundup/swim
72) See a wild mustang gallop, free
73) Help build something, like a house, school or well
74) Go to a Rave
75) Sit and watch the sun rise, and then set.

Thats all I can think of atm.... may edit this to add more later.

Since I have this, I've decided I might as well use it.

I mean, writing is good right? Sorting out your thoughts, putting them in words... all that junk. I used to write on another journal site, but over the last few years I have stopped. Not really sure why, but the need to write hasn't been as compelling as it was when I was a little younger. But, I'm going to try and force myself to do it, because I think it will be good for me.

So, where to start?

I just moved back to Waterloo, I'll have been here a week on Sunday. The first week of classes was... busy, I suppose. I got a lot done, I have most of my books, I am involving myself with a club, and trying to get in touch with old friends. I got some required things signed, and fixed and whatnot. All I have left is to do my OSAP, which is harder than it sounds, since you have to be on campus really early or they have signed all the appointments up for the day already. So, Monday or Tuesday I will have to get up really early (ie: 7:30AM) to get on campus and camp out for one of those golden tickets to get in and get my loans. Actually, I think the tickets are blue, but you get the idea.

We have the apartment set up pretty well, I think. I am doing pretty well with not being a complete and utter slob, so far... I think, anyways.
I've not been sleeping the best (ie, having a bit of trouble falling asleep, and then waking up way earlier than I am used to, around 8:30 in the morning, despite the fact I don't need to be up that early!) I'm going to chalk it up to being alone in my bed for the first time in months. I'm used to having company in bed.

I think I'm doing okay adjusting to the being away, but it's not the easiest thing ever... One week down, at least. I've been eating a bit better, since I'm poor and not able to eat out. I hold out some hope for losing the weight I've gained (like 8 lbs or something) lately... with the eating better, and exercise (walking around campus, riding lesson once a week, maybe some time in the gym?) it shouldn't be too hard I don't think.

I have not yet done any reading, but they are definately piling it on. Thus, my plans for the weekend include getting caught up on that. Sadly, that means putting in some quality time in the library, since for my LS401, he just puts the readings on reserve, which I hate! I would much rather pay money for a course pack, rather than  fight with  60  students for  use of two packs of readings. LAME. I also already have an assignment due. I need to find a recent Canadian law in the news and write some information up on that. It's due Tuesday, and only worth 5%, so no biggy.... but I can see that this year is going to be full.

And hopefully not just of school-work. I also hope to find some sort of employment, for some extra cash. I'd also like one of those social life things, since I remember that they were fun, but it's been a long time since I had one of my own. Lately, I've just been borrowing other people's, which is better than nothing, but you know, sometimes a gal just wants to hang out with her own friends.

I think I might have some still. *crickets* I guess I'll find out in the coming weeks.

Anyways, thats it for now.

I forgot I had this thing for a long time.